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i need to pull myself together, i tell myself to stay positive all the time, yet i'm constantly left feeling like it's just a front. Underneath my skin i feel as if i'm negative, maybe not even that. Maybe just aware of what people are like. I build up walls to block people out, to try keep myself safe, from being hurt, from being used, from everything that i've had happen in the past happening again. You may say not all people are like that, but when i think about it more and more. We really are, we just aren't aware of it. I am, i hurt people. Not intentionally, but i do. You never realise it until you think about the people that you hurt without meaning to are most likely the people who would probably not hurt you. These people are the ones who would most likely cherish you the most, but we look past this. Sometimes i feel as if people are these amazing creatures that are filled with so much love and compassion. Othertimes i see beneath these few acts of kindness and i see people who hurt, who cheat, who lie, who decieve. It's not just some of us though. We all do it. Every single one of us, me & you, him & her. But that's life i guess, we have to get on with it, which we do. It's a shame it happens, nothing will change it, however sometimes just the realisation of the matter helps you to get on with life. Knowing it's a fact of life, that EVERYONE does it at some point, it helps you to realise that it's not as bad as it seems. Just that alone makes you realise that life can suck, but it goes on.